Chemicals

I believe i'm stuck,
motionless and unable
to understand this life
never been so unstable
and often I find myself
with raindrops rampaging my skin
it's misery's melancholy
singing to me again
about how my eyes are skipping
what my heart wishes to see
the mind withholds a fervent rage
to let it all be
A numbness due to neurosis
as I succumb to this frailty
caught inside this hapless hypnosis,
slowly guided by apathy
paranoia has found its grip
a visceral claw that bends my will
letting go for casual guilt trips
between pages and prescription pills
so I pick my poison,
And let it surge through my veins
death by desire,
caused by an imbalance in my brain
Its the chemicals in my head,
a concoction of all things unsaid,
subscribed to a grand lie,
that it was the serotonin instead
the pills starve the sorrow,
and futile feelings within,
against a soul so hollow
am I ever going to win?
Nouman Fadra is an exceptionally lazy dreamer, looking for a way around the world, one word at a time. You can follow his thought provoking blog here: https://astromonkey21.wordpress.com/