Withdrawal

Excuse me for a while,
I'm not really in control,
this isn't usually my style,
and I guess it's taking its toll,
It's not something that I can't explain
Cause I could try, but I don't want to,
perhaps it's all in my brain,
an imbalance of things I need to do,
Forgive me for my insolent half,
has been rather kind to display,
that although I may humour you with a laugh,
deep within I'd rather fade away,
somedays I will let you,
question, perhaps ask me why,
and I'll scrutinize and look through,
every single attempt to pacify
and it may seem rather shallow
but i am grateful for your company,
for my words may seem hollow,
when my actions reek of apathy
I guess what I want to say,
is that I am rather sorry,
I don't really know why it is this way,
but I'm rather volatile when moody.
So i end this with my gratitude,
I truly am glad you bear with me,
cause off late my attitude,
it's not exactly how you know me/noumy
Nouman Fadra is an exceptionally lazy dreamer, looking for a way around the world, one word at a time.